Last night was a night for icky dreams. I dreamed about a crush from my first year of college. We were visiting secretly through emails or something. He was sneaking because his mom didn't want him to talk to me. Then we basically were sneakily seeing each other and talking and I explained to him that I just wanted to be friends again. He touched my arm and said, "Wow, I didn't know that."
My mind has never fully let that whole situation go to rest. Even though I have moved on with my life and I am a happy person, for some reason every so often my dreamscape takes me back to the feelings I used to struggle with. The sadness of losing a friend and the lack of closure.
These days usually become "Pride and Prejudice" days with hot chocolate and a blanket. Reset! The next day is always better. I've learn to just roll with it. The biggest way I deal is by forgetting. I do my best to stay away from certain people and I fill my life with people who bring happiness instead of negative emotions.
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